Walking With Tension

March 26, 2014 — 3 Comments

Front CoverToday is my friend Jenny Hill’s thirtieth birthday, and tonight, I will have the great honor of reading a portion of her new book, Walking with Tension, at her book release party. I am thrilled and delighted, because she is one of my heroes. Jenny has cerebral palsy, and she is one of the most courageous people I know. She asked me to write the foreword to her book, which I reprinted below.

Happy birthday, Jenny. All kinds of good is happening in the world because you are here.

You can buy Walking With Tension in paperback here and as an ebook here. You can follow Jenny on twitter here, and read her blog here.

Foreword to Walking With Tension

If you are a Christian who is experiencing the disappointment and disillusionment that comes with unexplained pain and suffering, you have most likely received two kinds of responses from fellow Christians. Neither one of them helps, and yet you hear them with such frequency that you wonder if everybody’s reading the same faulty instruction manual entitled, “How to Simultaneously Dismiss and Offend Those Who Suffer,” which nobody has had the decency to burn, or at least rewrite.

Response number one involves people who seem to be more concerned with defending the character of God, rather than walking alongside you in your pain. Their opening arguments begin with the insistence that God is all-powerful, all knowing, and all good. God both initiates and allows your suffering because a greater plan is in the works. They will carefully remind you that even though you can’t see it, and don’t know it, God must have a reason for your pain. God, after all, is in control, and your job is not to understand, but to simply shrug your shoulders and wait until God’s plan finally unfolds.

Response number two involves pressure to follow an immediate action plan through which your suffering will stop. This involves following a formula which, if followed exactly, will relieve you of your pain as soon as you simply put it to action. You hear stories of people who were “just like you,” and now are completely healed. Your hopes are raised and then dashed when these formulas fail. You feel betrayed by God, horribly defective because nothing “works” on you, and perhaps your friends have even given up on you because you must not have enough faith.

In Walking With Tension, Jenny Hill follows neither path. Instead, she blazes a new trail entirely. She tells her courageous story of learning to live with Cerebral Palsy, wrestling and engaging with God all along the way. Her story is captivating because it is raw and in some ways, disappointing. I cried my way through this manuscript, at times yelling at characters in her life that responded to her in ways that were damaging and unhelpful. Jenny writes poignantly and honestly about her struggle to make friends in junior high school while maintaining her identity through excelling in academics. She tells of her relationship with a Christian “healer” who promised results that never came. She writes passionately about both her belief and her unbelief. She teaches us that becoming fully alive in God is a course in which we all must enroll, whatever challenges our life may present.

In the end, Walking with Tension is a story of beauty and redemption. Jenny is learning how to honestly grapple with the disappointing reality that some things are not healed, but she’s also learning to gratefully and eagerly accept the gifts that God has given her in her unique journey. God’s gentle friendship, healing, and consistent leading has marked Jenny in deep and profound ways, and her journey blazes a new trail for those of us who are struggling to find God in our suffering.

If you are a Christian who is experiencing pain and suffering, this book is not the answer for you. But it is the story of a very courageous person, who is learning that God accompanies her in her pain. That God is partnering with her in discovering how her redemption is helping other people to grow and heal. And that healing is sometimes found as one learns to walk out one’s pain and suffering without resolution, but with tension.

3 responses to Walking With Tension

  1. Looks excellent. Bought it.

  2. Steve – extremely well written and poignant! So glad this topic is being addressed! I’m downloading the book today.

  3. Thank you for sharing this. Jenny’s book sounds wonderful. I appreciate the two types of responses you describe in your foreword. Having gone through years of infertility, and then twelve years ago the suicide of my pastor/husband, I have been hurt by Christians who want to help but have no clue what their pat answers imply. “Defending the character of God” is an interesting insight – and, I think, absolutely right. It sounds like Walking with Tension will do a great deal of good in teaching us how to walk with others in their pain instead of trying to “fix” their circumstances.
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